Dear Kevin...As I was sitting
here reading your E-mail the tears began to flow..I was exactly where you are
almost 21/2 years this March.
My Dad also had cancer. It began
in his thyroid and we also began not only conventional treatment but
alternative..the only difference was that my Dad and I went to New York for the
alternative treatment..his consisted of fresh juices,herb and homeopathic and
injections.
He also seemed to get better,for
awhile then one week after we arrived home from NY and the alternative
treatment was in full swing, he began having seizures,several seizures one after
another until he became paralyzed on one side.I also was his primary care
taker..even living with him..doing all you have been doing and then some,as I
was the only child not employed at the time.Then one seizure left him
semi-conscience and he was hospitalized,I like you was so exhausted..that I
welcomed a little R&R.
We also were then approached by
the DR's and were treated and talked to just like you,about the treatment that
we had decided to use..
Hospice also came in and we took
him home to die as the cancer had now spread all over especially in the
brain(the reason for the seizures)
My Mom would not go along with
DNR, as she is not a Christian.
Praise God my Dad was a
Christian and he passed away one week after we began Hospice and brought him
home..as much as I miss him I know he is with the Lord and finally healed and
not suffering.
I guess all you can do now is
pray your will be done Lord..spend as much time with him as possible and know
that soon he will be with the Lord well,healed and not
suffering.
It's so hard to let go but as
you said God is in control and He knows the plan he has for your
Dad...
I will be praying for you and
the family as the Lord directs. I have been where you are and know just what you
are going through!
God Bless.. Love in Jesus
name...Vicki